Wednesday, February 23, 2011

good housekeeping

marilynne,

if you are the written word, which word is your own:

"human," "connection," "piety"?

why leave me

to defend your word against the word of a thousand others

who believe that you, despite all your worth,

are frail, insignificant, and kneeling in your own cathedral


i'm not knocking on the door;

i need no shelter.

i'm pounding on stained glass,

discordant in my fervor to ask

to sanction my sanctuary

in a book on a page in the name of

some downtrodden mid-west man.

funny how alive you are(,) then.


you're not what you write,

but will you save my fucking soul?


i've heard you speak into microphones,

hush your voice to seem pensive,

speak to the camera for the camera.


spend fourteen years cleaning your own messes

break spines with your literary concrescence


even still, you've taught me that the human is the condition


but if i am the human corporeal, tell me where when how

do we go wrong am i wrong

to believe that

i don't have the words you do, i don't have the soul you do, i don't have the worth you do--i don't have words.

home/boarded up (ii)

"Raise

the curtain on this city,"

she cried,

belittled by my pathetic insight.


What have I gave that was ever my own?

What have I known to ever work?


"Because labor,"

she raised the question to follow mine,

"is just a promise i made to another one time?"


I'm still awake

I still know everything:


how you were so young,

how you were a soldier to needles and colds and overcoats.


Whatever emblem you've grown up to,

tear it from the wall.

And leave no semblance of me in your memory at all.

You're not the world you've laid out for me.

You're not the girl you've laden with our history.


Burned every letter; fed them to the fire.


You were a home boarded up.

You were a home boarded up.

You were a home boarded up.

You were home.